Pondering

I miss my family.  Some days are worse than others.  I'm not real sure what I miss more: the convenience of having them around or just being around them.  Every day at the hospital I see families lose a member of their family and I think to myself, "what in the hell am I doing so far away from my family when I should be soaking up every minute I have left with them?"  It is a question I have found myself asking a lot lately.  But, I always catch myself.

Am I unhappy? Absolutely not.  This is exactly where I need to be at this point in my life, no doubt about it.  God has put me in Houston, Texas for a reason and I intend to stay here as long as the good Lord wills.  But, that doesn't mean that I can't miss my family.  I am very content with where I am in my life, my career, and my relationship with my family and friends.  I am working everyday to strengthen my relationship with God and I hope I can reach a point where I am content with my relationship with Him.

I am very blessed and very lucky to have met such an amazing, sweet guy to spend the rest of my life with.  It is a miracle alone to have found someone to put up with me and my quirks.  I am even more blessed to be marrying into a family as amazing as my Fiance's.  They are truly God-send.

My mom and dad are two of the strongest people I have ever met.  I thank God everyday for the pair of parents He gave to me; to have been raised in a house where love was unconditional and there were no limitations on our ambitions and our dreams.  When I was younger, my relationship with my brother and sister was not as strong as my parents would have liked, but today, the bond and relationship I have with my brother and sister is truly unbreakable.  I have never felt more close to them as I do now.  I think the distance between us has a lot to do with it.  My relationship with my parents is much stronger as well.  What is that saying? Distance makes the heart grow fonder...I think that's right.  I'm not sure what the logic is behind that statement; maybe it has something to do with generating an appreciation for those people in your life and you begin to take the time to develop/strengthen the relationship.   I miss you guys.  See you soon.