Gone too soon

I was sitting at dinner last night and heard the news of Heath Ledger's passing and it hit me like a ton of bricks. Right at this moment, I still can't fathom it. I was reading all of the articles trying to understand it and I came across this picture, which gave me a knot in my stomach.



I am surrounded by death every day at the hospital and I feel as if I have become desensitized to it just so I can make it through the day. But, I'm not quite sure what hit me when I heard about Heath Ledger. It almost feels as if I personally knew him. I guess what scares me the most is how young he was and the fact that he was taking sleeping pills that half of America takes on a daily basis to help them sleep.

He was definitely one of those actors who shied away from the spotlight and tried to do things his way. On the heels of the Democratic and Republican debates where we are bitching and complaining about who voted for what bill and who is going make America's economy better again, Heath Ledger's death reverberated on every newscast nationwide. It should make us all spin our head and start putting everything back into perspective. Politically, I wish all of those candidates would start shutting their mouths, stop demeaning one another and start listening and observing to what is really happening to this country.

The future of this country are using drugs at an astronomical rate and experimenting with new concoctions without knowing what it will do to their bodies and their minds. There should be something done about that. There should be discussion about reckless driving and forcing states with no-helmet laws to reverse it and start make people accountable for their stupid actions; then, maybe, this country will begin to fear God and start worrying about the future of their soul.

Sometimes, it scares me to death to picture myself trying to raise children in a world where they are constantly surrounded by illicit and highly addictive prescriptive drugs. This entire world is heading in a direction that I am not proud of; where suicide bombers are being born at the age of 5 and stabbing your husband/wife is becoming a daily occurrence. I pray for my soul and for God to have mercy on it once I finally get to meet Him, and I pray that he has mercy on this country because if I were Him, I would be pissed off.